Practicing Courage to Walk Into the Future
As I sit here almost 10 months since Sam died, it feels like just last week......and yet it feels like I've been alone for years. Memories are vivid...and yet they fade. I have a hard time remembering what our days were like together..and yet I don't. Life is confusing. Trying to make sense of it is impossible. Nothing makes sense. What is worthwhile thinking about is the daily transformation each of us makes toward our future. Today formed tomorrow. The strength I gained today will hold me up tomorrow. The courage I mustered up to do the hard things today will come back tomorrow. Practicing courage enlarges courage; practicing faith and reliance on God's plan for me helps grow my faith. My short-term goals are still being formed. Today my lawyer sent me the final papers to dissolve our chiropractic corporation. I initially felt tears welling up and my throat tightening, but it seemed to pass, and I honestly just felt numb. I signed the papers and asked m